confessions of a night-owl

It's 0130, and I should be sleeping. I have no good reason NOT to be sleeping... I'm just not. I really, really look forward to the day when I can give night shifts a try... this whole morning thing just doesn't work very well for me!

I think it's probably time I get back to blogging, with the new and exciting things going on... since TWO Septembers ago, when I last really updated (all one of you who actually read this thing), more than a little has happened. A few (uh, more than a few...) weddings, a few vacations... and mostly, a new career move! In case you've been sleeping under a rock (or I just haven't talked to you recently since life has become a blur), I am going back to school again (again). This semester, I started taking pre-reqs for... (*drum roll please*) nursing school!

(*cricket, cricket*)

Yes, it's completely different than anything I've pursued thus far. Yes, it means at least two more years of school. And YES, I am really excited about it!

There is, of course, a story as to how this all came about. But it is not for tonight. Tonight is now for sleeping. The story shall come soon enough. With that, dear friends, I bid you buenos noches!

Bad blogger...

Yes, I know it's been like 23492387492387 years since I posted anything at all, let alone anything of substance. Let's just say things have been a little busy and leave it at that.

So what do I do after my blogging absence? I go off and start a new blog. I must be crazy. But with recipe requests and questions coming in more frequently these days, I felt I needed a place to share said recipes and baking wisdom (or at least, my version of such). AND I didn't want to stir things up too much here, since my latest recipe for apple pie doesn't exactly fit in the 'random thought' category. So let's see how well I do the two blog thing, shall we?

Without further ado, I am pleased to introduce (to the two people that currently read this blog!) my new baking blog... short & sweet! (Appropriate, no?) Look me up around the corner at http://shortsweeta.blogspot.com/. Covering mostly my (in)famous desserts, we will occasionally mix it up with a good appetizer or beverage recipe.. who knows! So if you've always wanted to know the secret to my killer apple pie or the recipe for (fill in the blank), drop me an e-mail or comment and I'll get it up!

Y'all take care now! And I promise not to totally neglect Random Thoughts, even though I'm moving on to sweeter things...

whilst biking the katy trail...

I was waylaid by a pedestrian.

And that statement actually has absolutely nothing to do with anything that I have to say tonight, but Lainey thought it rather humorous that I actually said this in conversation the other day when we were out on the Trail, and insisted that I put it up. So there.

So I'm sitting on my couch on a Sunday night, wishing I was actually tired enough to sleep, and dreaming of all the plans I have. Plans to finishing organizing my apartment and getting things just the way I like them. Plans of reading the ever-growing stacks of books by my bed. Plans of holiday parties that actually come to fruition instead of remaining ideas in my head. Plans of exploring my recently re-acquired fondness of crafting. Plans of traveling to see the world. Plans of being the best friend/daughter/sister/etc. I can be. And I'm realizing that for all my plans, I seem to be running around in circles an awful lot, never actually accomplishing much. And while I can blame in on this, that, or the other, it's really just a matter of how I choose to spend my time and on what I choose to focus my energy.

So. Where does this leave me? I've narrowed it down to a few realizations, two of which I shall mention here. First off, grad school. While a handful of you know this already, I am throwing this out there to general knowledge - I have no immediate plans to return to graduate school. "But Adrianne," you may say, "aren't you basically finished"? Yes and no. I have indeed finished all of my coursework and passed two of the three required exit exams. All that remains is to write and defend my thesis and pass the MuHi exit exam. It's a long story, but the short version is I'm not ready to put out any more effort for a degree that I will not use. I'm not permanently closing the door, but it is definitely on hold. And that is perfectly OK with me.

Second - Life, for all the busyness and drama and worries (and did I mention the busyness?), is actually grand. And I need to keep that in mind when I start to dwell on all the things I want to change. I can't fix everything/everyone at the same time. I need to step back and take things one step at a time.. and just see where God takes me from there. I see evidence that He is at work, and I can rest in knowing that He is working things for His purposes.

So there you have it. An update. A quasi-serious one, but an update nonetheless. And now, my pillow is calling, as tomorrow is Monday of what is sure to be a fast and furious week. We are within the two-week mark for the Peck-Chalko wedding.. and there is much to be done. I will try to be better about updating... but no promises!

Guten nacht, meine friends. 

Apple Pies and Summertime

I took the day off tomorrow to take care of a few wedding appointment for Kat's wedding. I have never been so glad to have a day off. Seriously, this busy work summer is killing me! I need a week of relaxing on some beach in Hawaii or something. Anyone want to subsidize my trip? It's for a good cause!

It is too hot. For serious. I have the Honda for a few days, and it has a temperature reading on the dashboard... yea, I'd really rather just not know. It makes it easier to cope somehow.

In other news, I make a mean apple pie. Evidently. I'm still perfecting my crust. Give me a few weeks...

And I am addicted to Cristina's in McKinney. Seriously, the best Mexican food. Lauren is trying to get me to move to the new apartments/lofts going up in Allen... not budging yet, but we'll see how long my resistance will hold up.

I have a wedding this weekend, number 3 of 6 for this year. I keep thinking I'll run out of people to get married... I did a very rough estimate of how many weddings I've been to... 33 and counting. Plus the three I have remaining this year.. I could hit 40 weddings before I'm 25. How do I know so many people?

So I've been considering an eventual job change... but I have no idea what I would like to do. People always say to do what you love.. so.. things I love: playing piano. baking. reading. organizing. planning. numbers. helping people. So. What can I do with that? Suggestions from the audience?

I'm feeling more myself these days. It's good to be back and smiling again. I had the best weekend... and the next few weeks look to be just grand. Look out world...

Tired Randomness

I have entirely too much on my brain tonight, and it is keeping me from sleep. So excuse my random ramblings... there really isn't much connection to anything or between murmurings... just attempting to clear my head.

If one more person asks about my thesis, I may scream. I want to finish... I just can't find the motivation at the moment. I'm hoping it's around the next corner...

I hope the Uptowners will excuse my heresy, but I'm falling in like with the world north of 'the bubble.' Seriously... it's just different up there. It's more relaxed, somehow. Far enough away to be able to breathe and be just around the corner from the freedom of the country... while close enough to my fair city to not be homesick for the Dallas skyline and my roots. We'll just have to see...

I have never felt so muddled in my life. Actually, that's not true. Ironically, I am more sure about more things than I think I ever have been. I know I belong at Uptown. I know I belong at the piano. I know that my family means the world to me. I know I have accumulated some of the best friends a person could ever hope to have. I know that I desire a family over a long-term career. I know that God is at work in my life in ways I never would have expected or thought possible. 

But yet, I am muddled. It's like I can see the road signs for the next city on my journey... but the road is doing zig-zags and circles that seem to be heading in the opposite direction. But I'm not driving... 

Be patient with me... I'm still trying to figure this out.

G'night dear ones...

It's Been Too Long...

Lest I be tarred and feathered for being an absolutely terrible blogger, I shall update today. Lots on my mind... so pardon the randomness.

Nothing like a birthday to put your life in perspective. But I'll get to that.

First, some birthday weekend highlights...

- Kobe with the family and my "adopted" sister et hubby
- a cake pasted with a picture of me at age 5
- Pit with the "old school" friends.. "one? one? one? ONE?!?!?!"
- Cake. Chocolate. With beer in it. 'Nuff said.
- Happy Birthday in G, rock band style
- Apples to Apples served with burgers in McKinney, kickin' it CG-style
- Godspeed, Private Shaver...
- Skirts made out of pillowcases...
- Sweet potato fries, Shiner, and an incredibly mild June evening with 20 of my wonderful church family.
- 24 text messages in 6 hours.

Seriously, y'all. Thanks for an incredible weekend. I am so blessed to have such amazing friends!

With the event of my birthday coupled with a few other miscellaneous events in the past week, I've come into contact with quite a few people who I haven't talked to in a while. The direction of such conversations inevitably leads to "what are you doing these days?", "where are you working? are you teaching?", and "how's that thesis coming?" And really, I have few clear answers, although by having to talk it through so many times, I'm coming to some conclusions. The first of many is that I will finish my thesis by next May, or I will likely never finish. The life I thought I wanted when I started this whole process is not even in the same ballpark as the direction I currently see myself heading. I am definitely not career driven, which some probably (or in the case of my professors, definitely) see as a bad thing. But I've realized that what I want out of life has very little to do with what job I have. Yes, I really want marriage and kids, and preferably sooner rather than later. But in the meantime, all I want is a stable job with enough flexibility to be there for my friends and family and enjoy living. Musically, I am happy to be in the band.. and maybe play a wedding or two occasionally. Not to say that I will never use my education... I just feel that it will probably be at a later stage in life. It's really the small things that matter to me these days... having an afternoon to just read a good book and drink coffee, enjoying quality conversation time with my dear ones, spending time in the kitchen up to my elbows in flour/chocolate/dough, sitting a piano and playing until my fingers hurt.. and so on. And now I'm starting to sound like a sappy Hallmark card, so I'll stop while I'm ahead. Just a lot to think about...

Oh, and my Godbrother leaves for Army Basic Training today. If you think about it, please pray for him. He's had a rough time, and he's trying to make the best of his life. I really hope this is a turning point for him.

Until next time...

the light grows brighter...

...the one at the end of the tunnel, that is.

I know, I'm a horrible blogger. It's not that I don't care.. it's just often a choice between sleep and blogging.. and sleep pretty much always wins.

After an absolutely horrid week last week, the weekend had some definite bright spots.. and this week is rapidly drawing to a close as well. With exception of my jazz jury next week, by noon on Friday, I will be FINISHED for the semester. And with class, forever. Only a thesis and a music history exam stand between me and that inordinately expensive piece of paper that will be my SMU diploma. I guess it was worth it? I've learned a lot about myself, for sure, and picked up some practical tools for my musicians toolbox. I've learned a lot about how God speaks and moves in my life through the people in my life. I will say that working full time while trying to get a masters degree is NOT a good idea. Even though I am blessed with an employer that allowed me the flexibility to come and go to class as needed, it definitely took a toll on me. I am looking forward to "just" working.. to have my evenings to do with as I choose.. to be able to keep a clean apartment not strewn with books and large stacks of paper.. to actually have hobbies again! I have so missed cooking and taking pictures and dancing and movies.. and mostly, to be able to focus on those I care about.. my family and friends. I know my attention has been pretty divided these past two years.. trying to keep up with it all. It feels good to pare down the scale a little bit. I know I'm a glutton for punishment, and tend to be super busy all the time.. but at least now I can be busy with things I love, instead of things I love to hate.

So, here's to Friday, and the beginning of the end of this chapter. It's kind of weird to think about it like that, actually. It's been an odd experience, being fully in the "working world" while still lingering in academia.. but I'm glad it's time to move on. I'm more than ready to turn the page and see where God will lead me next.

Happy Wednesday (almost) to you all! The week is half over. And Summer draws near.. (the honeysuckle blooming outside my front door is a testament to that!) so keep smiling!